As I sit here, drinking my coffee [ multiple coffee for a day ], I look outside and around me and all I can do is smile, I realize now as a grown human, I have so much to be thankful for. [ and being that Canadian Thanksgiving is this weekend, it fits ] I can see that life my life is better than I deserve, which is saying something. There is so much I overlook daily in my life. The world is full of pain and suffering [ especially lately ], hardship, much chaos and regret. So, the fact I can be genuinely thankful and mean every bit of it, it is in its own way, a small miracle to me.
When I was younger, I didn’t understand gratitude like I do today; everyone can probably admittedly say they take a lot of things for granted even the simplest things. In a world that always seems to hurt for no reason, giving thanks should be straightforward and honest. We live in a world where children die of hunger every day, so we can appreciate the small things every now and again [ it won’t ‘kill’ us ]. I now understand that being grateful is a choice you should be willing to make, daily.
Gratitude is not my strong suit first hand, I really am a sour, stubborn person. But I do try my best to let the people I am thankful for know, and when I am appreciative I let it be known. [ but I am not the only one who needs to work on this! ] This blog took some time and deep thinking to break it all down one by one. It is a firm order to remind myself of the many reasons that I have to be grateful. But it was an exercise well worth the discomfort. So today giving that its Thanksgiving here, I have made a list of things I am grateful for.
[ And here’s my challenge to you: take some time today, wherever you are and whatever you’re doing, to come up with a gratitude list; why you are thankful. If it doesn’t come naturally, don’t let that stop you from still giving thanks. There is still much to be thankful for. Dig deep. ]
- I am thankful for my friends. I haven’t had many true long lasting friendships because I am hard to deal with [ no shame what so ever ] but the ones that have stuck around and made my life that much more fulfilling, thanks you keep me sane when I need to yell about my nonsense.
- I am thankful for my family; my fabulous in laws, family by marriage, my brothers and friends that have became family. My in laws are GREAT people, they bend over backwards for me and my kids. We moved three hours away from them, and they didn’t skip a beat to visit. The family I have became a part of through marriage, accepted me without hesitation. The amount of familia support I have makes my little heart smile. I am SO grateful.
- I have never been more thankful for human beings than my own children; they are my saving grace, my everything. They make me a better person everyday. I am grateful for the little life lessons they teach me everyday as a mother.
- I am thankful for my health, for being able to have two beautiful babies and simply having life. I’m not perfect, but I’m thankful for my imperfections. And most importantly to be able eat turkey dinners on these holidays.
- I am thankful for my husband, who vowed to be my biggest fan on the day we were married and has never once let me down, even when I have felt I have let him down with my emotional craziness.
- I am thankful for the gift and love of writing; that it is both extremely hard and easy at the same time. Easy to do, hard to complete. It is at times challenging, racking my brain for these ideas, but it is super rewarding. I am extremely thankful for writers and readers everywhere online, who are making a difference in the world while writing, inspiring me to write.
- I am thankful for living back in a town where I initially came to life. Moving back to the mountains, moving back home. Bringing my own little family back to somewhere so dear to my heart.
- I am thankful for being able to be a working woman. Any work is good work when you get paid, but I can thoroughly say I enjoy my job and what I do.
- I am thankful for music, getting myself along with everyone else through day to day difficult times. The words in music move people in ways they can’t explain. Using words they can’t explain themselves.
- I am thankful for movies; for being able to turn part of my brain off and focus on something much cooler for 1-2 hours, even if it is SpongeBob for the twelve time in one day.
- And lastly, and most importantly, I am thankful for my beautiful angel. My Gran, no words can describe how much I miss her today. She has inspired me in so many ways. [ Today is her birthday. ] Nothing I can say can do the woman justice, no matter how many blog posts I make mentioning her. Everything we’ve shared together is forever filed in a special part of my brain. A place for only her and me. She has provided me with so much that I will never be able to pay her back for, but I am going to continue to try every day. I am so unbelievably lucky to have had her in my life for twenty-four beautiful years. Out of all the women to become a grandma in the world, I got the best in my life. I will never be able to fully put into words how much she has really inspired me, but I can go on for the rest of my life trying.
I’m thankful for striving to be a better person for myself, for others, and for this planet. I’m thankful for my strength and perseverance. I’m thankful for my awareness; for being so curious about who I am and why I do the things that I do. I’m thankful for my growth and for standing in my truth. I’m thankful for the challenges that helped shape and mold me into who I am becoming. I’m thankful for seeing myself through others so that I can become aware of the things that I need to work on.
Sometimes along the way we don’t make the best efforts to share the gift of thankfulness and appreciation, even if its just a simple thank you. Always be grateful. Because sometimes those moments don’t stick around long enough for us to tell our gratitude to someone or their doing. There is a way to do it in love and light, without diminishing the light of others. Try it out. Make your list.